The Journal of someone unknown

Its Sunday!! hahaha rest day.. ito talagang rest day... walang gagawin... hehehe. nasa bulacan amily ko.. ako lang mag isa sa bahay... hehehe i can do whatever i want to do... hehehe..

Bakit nga ba? its because... I WORKED YESTERDAY!!!! damn!

o well at least, medyo ok na yung program.. hehehe.. wala na ko masyadong iintindihin..:D

thanks to Karlo... hehehe...

hay... grabe tong workload ngayon... tapos kailangan ko pang pumunta na sa laguna.. mukhang matagal bago ko makakabalik ng manila...:(

o well.. i think that's life.. pero ok lang kasi makikita ko si dawn most likely.. hehehe

Tapos ung friday.. hehehe masaya... sinamahan ko si sheila... hihihi... nagshopping siya.. ako bodyguard hehehe... basta huwala lang... hahaha..:) happy moments... hehehe...

Reflect on these:

"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."

"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."

"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."

"I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life'."

"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."

"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."

"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."

"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."

"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone."

"People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."

"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

went to laguna yesterday... IMI in laguna technopark to be exact... tiring... grrrr....

buti na lang.. andyan si cheti.. THANKS cheti!! naavoid ko ang commute dahil napakaraming bag kong dala... dapat kasi magoovernight na ko yesterday sa laguna... kaso meron daw program na kaiklangan kong tapusin na sa libis ko lang maaccess.. hay... pagdating ko naman ngayon sa libis... wala rin pala... buti na lang.. naaral ko ang.. tentenenentenen!!!!!  SMARTFORMS!!! ayun... buti na alng... ready na ko bumalik ng laguna at gumawa ng maraming smartforms...

kahapon naman... nung pumunta kong laguna... grabeee... i woke up at 5 am.. sumabay kaila kate dahil wala na kong masasabayan... my dad dropped me sa c5 around 630.. kasi dun ang meeting point ng 7:45 to 8 am... so sige ok lang... naghintay ako til 8.. the thing is.. dumating sila ng 830.. huhuhuhu :( sad... as in sad talaga... buti na lang buti na alng dumating si cheti ng mga 8.. may kasama kong naghihintay... huhu.. tapos nung dumating sa IMI.. ang layo... as in ang layo.... habang nakatingin sa min si haring araw... nangitim pa ata ako...

then naintroduce samin si Shamin... malaysian abapper na maging lead namin sa developers ng IMI for three weeks... after 3 weeks.. bahala na.. hay talaga... tapos un.. kinausap na namin si Shamin para ibrief kung anung gagawin... and BAM!!!  work OVERLOAD! grabee ang dami... even Shamin told us na hindi kaya in 7 months lahat ng requirements... samanatalang 6 months lang ang binibigay samin.. ahuhuhu... and THAT'S the game!

last weekend, we went to Pulilan... napanood ko pa ang 1st game ng La Salle sa UAAP.. hahaa tambak.. belat.. La Salle is BACK for the Championship!

tapos un.. hay dami nangyari sa Pulilan.. di ko na ikukuwento.. hehehe..:D pero madrama talaga..

Last week naman... Friday... hmm.. i cant remember what i did last friday.. hehehe...ahh!! stayed in the office till 9pm... nasa office pa sila tiff.. hehehe nagyaya sila magdinner na nauwi sa tambay..3 kami.. ako si Elle, si Tiff.. hehehe kwentuhan to the max.. saya!

Thursday naman.. We went to UP, watched stars converge.. a Japanese Film.. astig talaga ang mga Hapon.. hehehe IKUKO!!! hehehe.. saya then we went to UP village grabbed something to eat.. well hindi lang GRAB dahil guto na talaga kami hehehe..:D pero masaya.. ako si sheila, si tiff, si catie, and si barcie..:D Happy Times!

Wednesday.. badminton with office mates and with sheila's friends!!! saya!! hehehe.. Happier Times!!

Tuesday... yan hindi ko na talaga maalala...:D hehehe...
Lalo naman Monday.. hehehe pag maalala ko mag post ulit ako..:D hihihi...

Sige guys!! Take Care!! Love you all!!!

 

im...

tired...lonely...bitchy...worried...not in a good mood... excited.. uncertain...crawling in the dark.. in need of guidance...in need of companionship..eager to meet someone who will make my life complete again... not sure if i already met the one..in need of truth..hoping everything is just a dream...becoming someone im not...loveing all the persons around me..hoping that they love me too..bored...in need of a new hobby...looking for contentment in life, relationship and friendship...writing this journal...talking to sally...thinking...having a hard time breathing...sick...ending this journal

thank you cza...eula...catie...alvin...jr...and yung mga susunod pa...
i didn't see that more shit is coming....
so depressing... so irritating... so life-crushing...
thanks guys! i really needed those...
i thought everything was going smooth.... but i was wrong..
sudden change..sudden phobia..sudden life crushing experience...
damn...

WHATEVER IT TAKES
why could something like this happen?
when i thought everything was ok
when could i change my future
if i couldnt even alter every day

i couldnt accept this happened
but i hope in time ill realize
it could be a challenge
it could be a sign of growth

i cant imagine whats going to happen
i cant imagine whats in front of me
i cant imagine what they will say
but i know this

ill do what i can
il do what i have to do
ill get my life back
whatever it takes.. whatever it takes..

but now im so down
up to the core ill drown
please pick me up
help me live my life back

teach me strength
teach me hope
give me faith
make me hold on

i cant imagine whats going to happen
i cant imagine whats in front of me
i cant imagine what they will say
but i know this

ill do what i can
il do what i have to do
ill get my life back
whatever it takes.. whatever it takes..

The past week was so weird...

3 stars ***

hay... friday, nagstart na ako magkasakit... then saturday, pumunta kong school.. nakipagmeet ako kay kat dahil she needs comfort and nagpahatid din siya sa pupuntahan niya.. ayun, nakatulong naman ako kahit konti... then i went home agad.. tapos sunday we went to bulacan.. yun ibang klaseng araw.

cough, cold, nosebleed at fever all in one!!

sobra yun... akala ko mamamatay na ko.. pero hindi pa rin pala...

nakapasok naman ako ng monday.. good thing...

tapos may ginawa ako nung gabi.. hindi ko alam kung bakit ko ginawa yun pero sa lahat ng pwede kong puntahan bakit kaya siya pa.. hindi ko rin alam ang sagot.. hay...

anyway.. wala rin namang nangyari.. sana lang mas naging warm siya ng konti.. para kasi akong nabastusan.. although alam ko naman na hindi niya ko sinabihang pumunta dun pero still... anyway.. hay.. putang inang buhay to.. naiinis ako..

pagdating ko pa nang bahay lalo lang ako nadepressed dahil sa nangyayari sa buhay namin..PUTANG INA TALAGA..

tuesday.. something came up..work related.. and SOMETHING REALLY CAME UP.. thanks to cza..

sobrang depressed ako until i read cza's journal.. hay... naiyak ako.. natouch talaga ko.. thank you talaga...:D i really needed that...

cza, ito pa...

UNTITLED
when i see your face
heaven comes upon me
when i feel your breath
its like cold breeze in summer

having you beside me
means everything to me
i just want to tell you
how much i love you

when everything seems so slow
you're the only one i think about
your smile your lips
everything about you that you make me miss

when i want sunshine
i'll just look at your picture
a little peek at your smile
make a thousand birds fly

wishing your love
wishing you were here
wishing i could show you
how much i care for you

when everything seems so slow
you're the only one i think about
your smile your lips
everything about you that you make me miss

music and lyrics by R.A. Espiritu

yan... hehehe.. cza.. tago mo din yan..

ingat ka lagi..

guys! mahal ko kayong lahat!! namimiss ko na kayo labas naman tayo...

june 14... whatta day!

hehehe.. 5 stars! *****

tagal tagal na rin akong hingi nakapagsulat at namiss ko siya...

masyado anging busy sa office.. nainjure pa ang paa ko.. (na naman.. grr..)
namiss ko kayong lahat.. sa totoo lang.. hehehe

hay... buti na lang nadelay ang pagpunta ko sa lagun dahil sa existing project na hawak ko ahihihi.. saya..

hindi ako pumasok after nung holiday hehehe.. piangpahinga ko ung paa ko... sarap ng hindi nagtatrabaho..:D

pero ayun pagpasok ko kinabukasan.. sabi sakin, kailangan daw tapusin ung program same day.. botsa!! patay!!

hehehe napaovertime tuloy nang wala sa oras.. pero buti na lang natapos on time...

kaso meron pa palang isa..hehehe at nung kinausap ko ung foreigner na naghahandle nung specs.. aba aba! NOSEBLEED!!
hehehe hirap intindihin... pero sige sige lang.. natapos naman hindi ko nga lang naintindihan kung ano sinabi hehehe

hmm tapos un.. natuwa ako kasi may tumawag sakin kagabi 3 am.. nagopen up.. masaya ko na friend pa rin niya ko..
and im happy may naitulong ako.. hay...

alam niyo, minsan talga timing is everything.. you'll know what im talking about...when you experienced it..
sometimes you dont have to rush things.. they will come into place one by one.. trust me..:D

hay.. sige po.. ingat kayo lagi!

love you all!!

june 6.. a very tiring day...

but enjoyable.. hehehe.. 4 stars ****

woke up early around 630.. ok naman.. hehehe lipat ng kwarto tulog ulit..:D
nagising ng 8 nakaalis ng 845.. di na nakabreakfast..:D

pagdating sa office. andun na si verly(naturally hehehe..) then i went to my cubicle.. hahaha nagsimula ako agad..:D
finished my first task in an instant... nagkaroon lang ng revisions kaya umabot ng lunch hehehe...

kaso hindi ko kasama sila verly sa lunch... i ate lunch at teriyaki boy.. with jolet.. un.. pinagkwentuhan ang malateleserye niyang buhay... hahaha(maiintriga talga kayo hehehe) un... till 130..

went back to office and worked again.. hay.. walang katapusang trabaho.. hehehe hindi kasi pumasok si maricar..:D pagaling ka na nga.. hehehe ok lang yan..

tapos un.. ni hindi man lang nakapagbreak.. thanks to cheti... nagka c2 ako bigla.:D  tapos un... hindi ko namalayan 6 na pala.. at uuwi na silang lahat.. ako natira sa office huhuhu... with karla and ed(embassy boy hehehe..) and someother guys.:D pero natapos ko lahat ng task kaya masaya ko...

when i got out.. andun si jolet.. kasama si renz (brother niya... ) at pinagusapan na naman ang malateleserye nilang buhay... hihihi... joke lang jolet! 

tapos un.. stayed there til 930.. tapos uwi na. hehehe laro konti beach life..:D ok tlg un... tapos un.. ito nagsusulat na ulit at matutulog na maya maya..

malapit na kong pumuntang laguna... hay...

ingat kayong lahat!!! love you all!!!